As I sit in the dark by the light of one lone candle flame, I am overwhelmed. God’s vehicle into my heart tonight was a book that I bought many months ago, written by a dear woman I got to know briefly in Kansas City. I knew bits and pieces of her journey and thus had deemed the book one-i-will-read-when-i-am-ready…and tonight for some reason, I heard a whisper. He said read it now.
Two hours passed and a steady stream of beautiful tears came along…it was as if God himself was sitting with me, urging me to keep going, to remember and believe who He truly is and how much He loves abundantly. I’m not sure why I’m writing at the moment, because He has left me speechless.
I feel so loved.
It’s powerful to read another’s testimony of how they’ve walked through valleys and mountains with Jesus…it led me straight to His feet…in awe of who He is and how He loves.
I want to live my life with this feeling. The feeling of being loved no matter what, by the God of the universe…my heavenly Father, my faithful friend, my constant cheerleader. This is the gift He promised- His everlasting Love. I know feelings can be fleeting at times, but some feelings are meant to root into our soul and plant. I could not follow Jesus with my whole heart without feeling Him, and I don’t think He wants me to blindly follow either. He cares about my frame, about my will, my emotions, my dreams, my quirks, my fears…He knows it all and STILL HE LOVES ME LIKE THIS.
He knows my name.
He is writing my story and cares about each day that I wake up to. What a gift to behold… His love. Thank you Sara for sharing His beauty so tangibly, and thank you Jesus, for everything.
*Every Bitter Thing Is Sweet by Sara Hagerty*