There are some nights where i’m literally stopped in my tracks…headed to bed usually, when I get the urge to write. Sometimes I say no, but some special moments I choose to forgo sleep and sit down in front of my computer. I rarely waste a moment before opening the site I blog on…and never have to spend a second wondering what to write about.
It just comes.
I have an overwhelming feeling of excitement for our next kiddo. This is a bit odd considering we just moved across the country and just this morning I got our second son’s school squared away. I am on the eve of sending both boys back to school and it’s been almost a month and a half since I last dropped them both off to a classroom. To say I’m relieved is an understatement…for all of us I believe. The boys love school and I love that they get to go. But it hit me tonight- what everyone always told me- the little years are special and they are few.
I get to be a mom. I want to be the best one I can be. I want to do this job better than I will ever do any job in the whole world…always growing, learning, adapting, stretching. This move has created space in my mind to realize that I don’t have to do the same routines that I’ve always done. I can make up new ways to get the same ol’ stuff done…and maybe I will even come to love homework time?! I’m looking at miracles people.
But what really hit me tonight is that we’re not done. We’ve known that all along, but as each passing year goes by sometimes I wonder about the when. Yet I feel so confident that God will share that detail as I just keep following His beauty, His ways, His delight. And I feel a joy rising in me for the next Farrell…however, whenever. It’s gonna be good.
And no, in case you’re wondering- we have nothing brewing, no secret adoption match- we haven’t even done a california home study, so seriously- this is simply about my heart. My goal this year was (is) simply to say yes and I’ve loved how it’s opened my mind up to endless possibilities already.
Yes incubates hope.
We need hope…in every single area of our lives. It breathes life into this journey we have the privilege to live. I am so grateful that this year, 2017, I get to see everything in a whole new light simply because we said yes to a seemingly crazy idea that landed us on the opposite coast of our country…and right into everything Jesus has planned next.
It’s a beautiful life and I can’t wait to see what’s next.