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i’m here.

It’s my dad’s birthday today!  Happy Birthday POPS!  WE LOVE YOU!

I feel like I’m still recovering from my trip up north- I took the 3 kiddos solo and it was, a trip.  I’m reminded of this article I read last year…Vacation or Trip?  A Guide for Parents and my trip totally included throw-up devices.  Alas.

Also yesterday was supposed to be 116 degrees.  I don’t think it made it up that high, but it doesn’t matter- it’s the principal of the thing.  My aunt from Alaska arrives today, and I’m hoping she doesn’t melt the second she steps onto land here.

I gotta say, as I looked through the Nordstrom Anniversary sale this year, it was so weird to not be thinking about winter coats or even sweaters…I’ve heard it’s warm all the way through the Fall- though, I’m excited for that ‘warm’ because it’ll feel more like a summer I’m used to.  And then we arrived in December of last year and I already know I love winter here, because it feels like fall.

Speaking of clothing…I’m kinda freakin out that I need clothing to dress myself for actual society at least 5 days a week starting very soon.  Guys, I’ve survived on a plethora of comfy clothes not suitable for outside my home walls for years…and a couple choice outfits that rotate around, based on the fact that I don’t usually see the same people ever- so I exist on the outside with the same two shirts with the same one pair of jeans.  AHH!

Other random thought…have you guys ever worn modal fabric?  It’s my absolute favorite thing in the world I think.

Another favorite in life right now- on our road trip, I re-introduced my kids to the original Lion King and forgot how much I LOVE that movie and all the songs.  I was belting them out down the highway louder than they were.  Upon our return I found that  a tv show has been made as a continuation of this marvelous movie…which I promptly bought the first season of.  But even better- they are remaking the original by 2019!

In other news- I found out this week that Maya has to wear close-toed shoes to preschool and thus started my search for shoes for her.  She’s notoriously picky when it comes to footwear- even more than I.  Thanks to my best friend Zappos (free shipping/free returns) I ordered ten pairs to start for my littlest child- to which she literally turned her nose up to all the ones that weren’t pink…until her daddy stepped in and declared some silver shoes to be “Cinderella’s!!” and magic- she tried them on.  She also stripped off her clothing and ran to find her Cinderella dress and I really hope that doesn’t happen every time we try and put them on.  So, right now, we have one pair of shoes that pass her rigorous testing.

One of my other quirky kids is getting to celebrate his birthday a month early…Regan has struggled to wait “all summer” for his birthday every year now.  It’s tough because Josiah’s birthday is June 4 so we start the summer with a bang and then he literally cries at the idea of waiting until August 27.  So…this Friday is Regan’s 6th birthday instead.  I can’t wait to spend the day enjoying the most enthusiastic birthday (or anything!) person in our family.

Then, next weekend my brave husband decided to join Bethel’s Father/Son camping trip- I’m so impressed!  Not one of them has ever slept in a tent…so this is gonna be epic.  It’s designed for boys age 5-12 and their dads- I can’t wait to hear the stories.

I think I’ll probably just watch lots of Netflix while they are gone, but what I should do is work more on reading my first book assignment for school…When Heaven Invades Earth– it’s due by the first week of class.  I started it this week and realized I have an irrational fear of forgetting- based on the fact that I forget what every book I read is about, exactly 5 minutes after I finish.  If I’m lucky, I can remember that I loved it or just liked it- because if I find any disdain, I don’t even finish a book.  EEk.  Now I’m jumping into school, where actual book reports are required.  So I’m nervously reading a chapter and scanning for anything I can use- then furiously taking notes.  It’s taking a bit more time.  Hoping my brain will adapt, sooner rather than later.

If I was really motivated and my daughter was amazing out in public, I would take a trip down to San Fran for the day… just to see the Color Factory.  Have you heard about this?  It’s a pop-up experience celebrating color…and everything I’ve seen so far make it look amazing, incredible and fantastic- I might be a color-lovin’ dork, but I’m proud of it.

Last random thought before I go…anyone in need of a cute planter?  Here’s a cute pink whale… or an adorable hedgehog or even this hedgehog.  So cheap, so adorable.  Buy it and throw a succulent in them.  In my honor.  Because I can’t grow plants in this no-natural-light house.

Okay.  Over and out.

happy birthday brinks

I usually always write a birthday post for each of my kids…but I haven’t done one for Brinks in a long time.  So here I am.  Perhaps I’ll blame it on the most recent dog movies I’ve watched- A Dog’s Purpose *sobs!!* and Megan Leavy *tears*, or her sad leg injury that had me crying at the vet a few months back…but I’m becoming more nostalgic and sentimental (both the same word ha!) about my dearest canine friend lately.  Today is her EIGHTH birthday…she’s 56 if I calculate correctly.

I’ve never been obsessed about my dog but I love her to pieces.  She brings peace to my home- I never have to worry about scary sounds or intruders…have you ever heard her bark?  She brings cleanliness to us daily- I can’t imagine how much more I’d have to vacuum if she weren’t in our lives.  I truly don’t know how people do life with toddlers without a dog.  She brings me joy- perhaps because she’s the easiest of the family to please and never holds a grudge.  She is sweet and patient and ever present.  I just love her.

Happy Birthday dearest Brinks!!!  Now I’m going to go through all our old pictures and probably tear up as I post a few here.  Excuse me while I go now.

 

I bought a paper planner

I haven’t purchased a paper planner in seven years.  I still remember looking at my current planner the year Josiah was born and finding it incredibly empty by the end of that year- 2010.  And I LOVED my analog (ha!) planner, despite so many people telling me to turn digital.  I just enjoy hand writing things…color-coding…checking off boxes and crossing things out.  Over the years we’ve acquired a calendar app for the family which works great for multiple people usage, but I couldn’t wait for a reason to say goodbye to the digital world just a little.

What’s my reason?  Why now…after 7 years, did I purchase the most beautiful Rifle Paper planner?  I’m going back to school!!!  Surprised?  Um, I’m pretty shocked myself.  When we moved to Redding in December, I had no plans…at some point, I knew we wanted to adopt baby #4 but was trusting (and still am) that God will show us the right timing in that.  Honestly, I just figured I’d do the mom thing some more- get involved where I could, make some friends- do life.  In no way did I think I’d be attending Bethel’s ministry school this year, though I’ve always had it on a bucket list for when all my kiddos were done with the toddler years- many years from now.

However, this spring I found myself trying to persuade my little sister into applying… and one night I jumped on the computer and started the application myself.  All the while thinking, there’s no way this will work out but fun to dream nonetheless.  But my heart came alive with the possibility, so I just kept going.  When it came time for my interview and was asked ‘why do you want to do this school?’ I could confidently say that

I want to be pushed out of my comfort zone…

I want to be challenged…

I know there’s more for me, for my family…

I want freedom in areas of my life that I don’t even know are locked up…

I want to know God more.

Several have asked what I will “get” at completion…implying that I might be attending to pursue a specific career in ministry…but I’m not, at least that I know of.  Ha!  There’s no degree or credits or anything of that sort- this is purely for spiritual growth.  I’ve heard it’s like being at a Bethel conference for 9 months!  I’m excited and nervous but so ready for a change.  While I have loved having my sole career be ‘mom’ for the last 7 years, I’m looking forward to adding to those joys/responsibilities this fall.

I have loved watching God work out the details- my kiddos were all accepted to Bethel Christian school for the fall, which means the times of my classes and theirs will work out seamlessly.  Praying for all the finances to come in, but I just feel so confident that He is leading and this is exactly the right timing.  As of now, I’m taking it one year at a time (there are 3 years of schooling possible) and seeing what happens.  BSSM starts at the end of next month- crazy!  I am hoping to post more on this little blog as life changes drastically soon…but time will tell.  This space may go on hold…we’ll see.

Last month I ordered 3 little enamel pins very strategically, for my school bag (eek! I have a school bag now- ok, it’s an old bag I used for a carry on but now…).  I am claiming them as my little mantras if you will, a few words to live by.  (asildastore.com)

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I know it’s going to be crazy and hard and wonderful, but through it all, I want to truly enjoy the journey, as cheesy as that sounds…I want the JOY.

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I want to keep what matters and get rid of the rest.  I also want to keep what is most important in the front of my mind…my relationship with Jesus, my marriage, my children… they all come first.  But I don’t want to be afraid to say goodbye to a lot.

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This is what most excites me…creating something new- new habits, new beliefs, new ways of life…new hopes, new dreams…HE makes all things NEW. 

 

my son is buying kindle books and can’t read.

It’s almost 11pm right now, and as I type I am simultaneously waiting for amazon chat to issue refunds for 3 kindle books I apparently downloaded tonight while I wasn’t even near a device to do so.  I got an email telling me that one of the books At Home in the World: Reflections on Belonging While Wandering the Globe and successfully arrived and did a double take.  I couldn’t for the life of me remember wanting that book, let alone buying it.  And then I remembered we let our sweet middle child get a turn in our bed to fall asleep (our boys are not good room sharers, as in they don’t fall asleep very well together).  Usually it’s Josiah in our room until Regan falls asleep but we thought we’d switch it up for an evening.

Sometimes I forget the curiosity of one regan ocean…that little rascal.  So first I thought to myself ‘that’s lame- but it’s $8 and i’m tired’ but thankfully I checked my amazon orders instead of chalking one up to crazy reegs.  Turns out he bought two other books tonight- both at high prices- one entitled Radical Candor: Be a Kick-A$$ Boss Without Losing Your Humanity and it was at that moment I became thankful that he can’t actually read yet.  Phew!  The last chosen book The Light We Lost looked to be a romantical tale…not my cup of tea either…geez.  He was a busy little bee tonight.

Just in case you’re wondering, you can get refunds on digital orders.  I was nervous they wouldn’t, because well…if I was some genius who reads fast, I guess I could have downed at least one of those books in 2 hours.  But never fear, amazon chat to the rescue- my favorite form of customer service by far- the chat window.  God bless em.  I wish medical offices would offer those.  Oh, I just saw a message that her return requests came through…so my $ is on the way home- hooray!

Anyway- now that I’ve basically finished a post, I guess I can fill in some gaps…this week is the official start to summer.  Last week Josiah had a little school and then we started potty training (I saw we meaning: Josiah, Regan and I as the teachers…Maya the student) because they were super helpful and great.  She was rocking it all for several days and I was feeling so good- my apathy had paid off…until I made the mistake of adding undies to the mix… accident city.  So, we headed back to commando land but I realized I can’t be quarantined for much longer without losing my sanity.  Tomorrow starts hardcore underwear training…whatever that means.

We have a babysitter now- hallelujah!!  She is starting tomorrow and coming to my rescue once a week for 4 hours…glorious!  I also got things rolling for the boys to attend Bethel’s children’s choir camp since I keep striking out on VBS dates all over town.  It starts in a few weeks, right after I get home from my sister getaway in Bend, Oregon.  Bend is exactly 5 hours for both of us to drive, so we’re meeting in the middle.  I can’t wait!

Okay, I’m seriously just rambling.  so boring.  My bed is calling.

 

my two boys

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I took this photo over this last holiday weekend and seriously couldn’t stop staring at it.  My boys are growing up.  I mean, seriously growing up.  Eek.  You know that feeling when you spend every day with someone you don’t notice the changes as obviously as if you only see them once a year.  This picture feels like I just noticed that they are grown.  Just kidding, not grown…but definitely older than I thought they were last week.  Ha!  I just LOVE these two kiddos- what a gift they are to us.  GOSH.  Thank you JESUS!

happy mothers day

Since it’s May… which is almost the middle of the year- I thought it was a perfect time to assess my new years resolutions.  Ok, in truth, my son brought home a mothers day gift for me and it sent fireworks flashing through my heart.  I won’t transcribe the entire card, but it was a fill-in-the-blank type…and the line that caught me by surprise was this one:

My mom always says _______________.

Are you cringing?  I was, until I read his answer.  I could easily rattle off a dozen things I always say, and undoubtedly most would not be of the pleasant variety.  Especially regarding this young lad who I adore, even when I have to guide him back to earth a hundred times a day.  Josiah, come here…Josiah, stop…Josiah, turn off your light, Josiah, no..not right now…later…can you please not sit entirely on top of me…no, i think i’m done learning science facts for now…and the list goes on and on.

Yet, this year- the year 2017 where my sole resolution for the year was “Just say yes“… I got a sweet ‘atta-girl’ from Jesus through my dearest first born son.  His mothers day card to me said, “My mom always says yes.”

?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!!!!??!??!?!?!?!??

Hallelujah!  God is good.  My mothers days has already been made.  I mess up a lot on this motherhood journey, but this week my son remembers that I say yes.  And that is enough for me.

Happy Mothers Day to my mother dearest and to the two mothers who sacrificially gave so that I could be a mom.  Love you forever.

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just a few little things…

Gosh.  My last post was 25 days ago.  This poor little blog is feeling neglected, but I just can’t bring myself to write.  There’s not a ton to fill these pages right now… a lot on the horizon but nothing happening at the moment, except little things…

…getting excited to really spoil Josiah for his 7th birthday.  His Christmas was kind of a dud, even though he never said a word about it- I just know.  And the big news on the block is that it’s finally time to introduce legos.  Leave it to my rainbow lovin’ first born to choose the Legos that are crazy and full of color- I love it!  I’m also psyched to order a butterfly kit, where he’ll be able to watch 5 butterflies go through their whole lifecycle.  He LOVES butterflies and crafts…I went thru the amazon craft section and could have literally put everything in my cart.  He’s so fun.

…also just tonight, we added scooters to our outdoor activity regime.  In truth, all our bikes have died basically, and scooters seem fun and easy.  So- they are debuting tomorrow and I’ll let you know if they’re a hit.

…all the grocery store flowers I bought the other week when we hosted people for dinner have died…but i’m discovering tons of roses in our backyard and they smell so heavenly. I’m trying not to cut them down all the time because I love seeing them outside, but gosh, they are so tempting.  Jos wants to bring them all to me, but for now I limit him to dandelions.

…no more school for regan.  his preschool was finishing mid-may and my parents are kindly coming to watch our chicks while we jet off to the glorious shores of jersey, so I thought i’d save us a few bucks and end preschool early.  but it is making me realize it’ll be a long long summer.  One word for the wise: if you ever own a house with a pool…never move into another house without a pool.  especially when you’re far from the ocean.

…i’ve discovered perler beads again…you know, the little tiny beads you arrange into cute shapes and iron to melt together?  Yes- and you might think i’m letting my boys partake, but no.  It’s just for me.  I’m making quotes with them…only problem is that I never unpacked my iron, so who knows when they will actually ever be made.  Sad.

…does anyone know when the new iPhone is coming out?  i’m holding out for the 8 because i read a (probably bogus) article that it would be debuting in the fall.  Anyone?

…today was SUCH a long day (read: josiah had a day off and I was tired) that I actually willingly gave my kids baths.  If you know me…you know, that had to be a bad day.

…but tomorrow is a fresh start.  Right Jesus?