my son is buying kindle books and can’t read.

It’s almost 11pm right now, and as I type I am simultaneously waiting for amazon chat to issue refunds for 3 kindle books I apparently downloaded tonight while I wasn’t even near a device to do so.  I got an email telling me that one of the books At Home in the World: Reflections on Belonging While Wandering the Globe and successfully arrived and did a double take.  I couldn’t for the life of me remember wanting that book, let alone buying it.  And then I remembered we let our sweet middle child get a turn in our bed to fall asleep (our boys are not good room sharers, as in they don’t fall asleep very well together).  Usually it’s Josiah in our room until Regan falls asleep but we thought we’d switch it up for an evening.

Sometimes I forget the curiosity of one regan ocean…that little rascal.  So first I thought to myself ‘that’s lame- but it’s $8 and i’m tired’ but thankfully I checked my amazon orders instead of chalking one up to crazy reegs.  Turns out he bought two other books tonight- both at high prices- one entitled Radical Candor: Be a Kick-A$$ Boss Without Losing Your Humanity and it was at that moment I became thankful that he can’t actually read yet.  Phew!  The last chosen book The Light We Lost looked to be a romantical tale…not my cup of tea either…geez.  He was a busy little bee tonight.

Just in case you’re wondering, you can get refunds on digital orders.  I was nervous they wouldn’t, because well…if I was some genius who reads fast, I guess I could have downed at least one of those books in 2 hours.  But never fear, amazon chat to the rescue- my favorite form of customer service by far- the chat window.  God bless em.  I wish medical offices would offer those.  Oh, I just saw a message that her return requests came through…so my $ is on the way home- hooray!

Anyway- now that I’ve basically finished a post, I guess I can fill in some gaps…this week is the official start to summer.  Last week Josiah had a little school and then we started potty training (I saw we meaning: Josiah, Regan and I as the teachers…Maya the student) because they were super helpful and great.  She was rocking it all for several days and I was feeling so good- my apathy had paid off…until I made the mistake of adding undies to the mix… accident city.  So, we headed back to commando land but I realized I can’t be quarantined for much longer without losing my sanity.  Tomorrow starts hardcore underwear training…whatever that means.

We have a babysitter now- hallelujah!!  She is starting tomorrow and coming to my rescue once a week for 4 hours…glorious!  I also got things rolling for the boys to attend Bethel’s children’s choir camp since I keep striking out on VBS dates all over town.  It starts in a few weeks, right after I get home from my sister getaway in Bend, Oregon.  Bend is exactly 5 hours for both of us to drive, so we’re meeting in the middle.  I can’t wait!

Okay, I’m seriously just rambling.  so boring.  My bed is calling.



josiah is 7.

*Seven is significant.  I can just feel it.  This year is gonna be big for you buddy.*

Happy 7th Birthday Josiah Henry!  Today we celebrate you with rainbows, trolls and butterflies…as you requested around January 3.  You are always one to look ahead, yet you are the same one who gets lost in the moment over and over again.  This year was definitely one of big changes and growth- and you took each challenge in stride.

We moved across the country and you accepted all of it with such grace.  You are doing your best at sharing a bedroom with your looney bro- it’s a good thing you’re so patient.  You jumped right into a brand new first grade class with excitement…declaring you are friends with almost everyone- you don’t claim favorites.  But you do in other things…like colors.  I love that your favorite colors are still pink and red.  I love that you tried choosing pink and purple glasses just this week, after your leopard print ones bit the dust.  Sadly, you had to settle for cool honey colored (as you call them) ones instead.  If I let you pick out your own clothes, you often try for monochromatic outfits…one day is red, one day is blue…you’d probably try that all the time if I wasn’t so picky.  Ha!

I love that you’ve become more confident in hearing God’s voice.  Your heart is so tender towards the Lord and He is so proud of you.  You are confident in His love and who He has made you…it’s amazing to watch you trust Him.  It seems so natural, so effortless and I pray that it will be this way all of your days.  I love watching you learn about God and discover more of who He is.  Your curiosity and fear of the Lord are both gifts I want to emulate.  I’m so thankful for your tenderness…you are so humble and kind.

You are still such a wonderful big brother.  You give and give and give.  You encourage and serve…rarely saying no when asked to help.  I love watching you teach your siblings, most often just simply by example.  You are so peaceful, even when you’re crazy.  You’ve mastered bathroom cleaning (the best!) and chapter books and sleeping in.  Your sense of humor is maturing, and it’s fun to see you understand my jokes and weirdness.  You have the best poses for pictures and dancing is a daily ritual for you.  This year you’ve discovered legos and I’ve finally given in…but I love that you only want the rainbow colored ones.  You are unique and special and so so colorful.  You, my son, are a priceless treasure.  I am so grateful that I get to spend my days with you…even if you won’t let me kill a spider because it’s God’s creature.

Happy 7th birthday my dearest, handsome, wonderfullest son,

Love your co- wheel-a-fortune gamer, mommy


my two boys


I took this photo over this last holiday weekend and seriously couldn’t stop staring at it.  My boys are growing up.  I mean, seriously growing up.  Eek.  You know that feeling when you spend every day with someone you don’t notice the changes as obviously as if you only see them once a year.  This picture feels like I just noticed that they are grown.  Just kidding, not grown…but definitely older than I thought they were last week.  Ha!  I just LOVE these two kiddos- what a gift they are to us.  GOSH.  Thank you JESUS!

happy mothers day

Since it’s May… which is almost the middle of the year- I thought it was a perfect time to assess my new years resolutions.  Ok, in truth, my son brought home a mothers day gift for me and it sent fireworks flashing through my heart.  I won’t transcribe the entire card, but it was a fill-in-the-blank type…and the line that caught me by surprise was this one:

My mom always says _______________.

Are you cringing?  I was, until I read his answer.  I could easily rattle off a dozen things I always say, and undoubtedly most would not be of the pleasant variety.  Especially regarding this young lad who I adore, even when I have to guide him back to earth a hundred times a day.  Josiah, come here…Josiah, stop…Josiah, turn off your light, Josiah, no..not right now…later…can you please not sit entirely on top of me…no, i think i’m done learning science facts for now…and the list goes on and on.

Yet, this year- the year 2017 where my sole resolution for the year was “Just say yes“… I got a sweet ‘atta-girl’ from Jesus through my dearest first born son.  His mothers day card to me said, “My mom always says yes.”


Hallelujah!  God is good.  My mothers days has already been made.  I mess up a lot on this motherhood journey, but this week my son remembers that I say yes.  And that is enough for me.

Happy Mothers Day to my mother dearest and to the two mothers who sacrificially gave so that I could be a mom.  Love you forever.


just a few little things…

Gosh.  My last post was 25 days ago.  This poor little blog is feeling neglected, but I just can’t bring myself to write.  There’s not a ton to fill these pages right now… a lot on the horizon but nothing happening at the moment, except little things…

…getting excited to really spoil Josiah for his 7th birthday.  His Christmas was kind of a dud, even though he never said a word about it- I just know.  And the big news on the block is that it’s finally time to introduce legos.  Leave it to my rainbow lovin’ first born to choose the Legos that are crazy and full of color- I love it!  I’m also psyched to order a butterfly kit, where he’ll be able to watch 5 butterflies go through their whole lifecycle.  He LOVES butterflies and crafts…I went thru the amazon craft section and could have literally put everything in my cart.  He’s so fun.

…also just tonight, we added scooters to our outdoor activity regime.  In truth, all our bikes have died basically, and scooters seem fun and easy.  So- they are debuting tomorrow and I’ll let you know if they’re a hit.

…all the grocery store flowers I bought the other week when we hosted people for dinner have died…but i’m discovering tons of roses in our backyard and they smell so heavenly. I’m trying not to cut them down all the time because I love seeing them outside, but gosh, they are so tempting.  Jos wants to bring them all to me, but for now I limit him to dandelions.

…no more school for regan.  his preschool was finishing mid-may and my parents are kindly coming to watch our chicks while we jet off to the glorious shores of jersey, so I thought i’d save us a few bucks and end preschool early.  but it is making me realize it’ll be a long long summer.  One word for the wise: if you ever own a house with a pool…never move into another house without a pool.  especially when you’re far from the ocean.

…i’ve discovered perler beads again…you know, the little tiny beads you arrange into cute shapes and iron to melt together?  Yes- and you might think i’m letting my boys partake, but no.  It’s just for me.  I’m making quotes with them…only problem is that I never unpacked my iron, so who knows when they will actually ever be made.  Sad.

…does anyone know when the new iPhone is coming out?  i’m holding out for the 8 because i read a (probably bogus) article that it would be debuting in the fall.  Anyone?

…today was SUCH a long day (read: josiah had a day off and I was tired) that I actually willingly gave my kids baths.  If you know me…you know, that had to be a bad day.

…but tomorrow is a fresh start.  Right Jesus?

fill in the blank friday

1. Enjoying grocery shopping is something that I never thought I would do, again.  But its happened folks.  I don’t mind it at all, and actually sometimes look forward to it.  I do miss grocery delivery though…like for when I was sick for a week.

2. A current fashion trend I wish I was brave enough to wear a one piece…jumper…but I think that won’t happen until I lose 70 pounds…if ever.  I just think they are so cute on people.

3. My greatest accomplishment in life thus far is following Jesus…and keeping my children alive and well.

4. If I had to choose between a mountain or a beach vacation I’d choose beach vacation, every time.  Though, I do LOVE mountains and love living in Redding where I can see them again everyday, like my childhood.  But I miss the ocean, so much.

5. A talent I wish I had is that I wish I was naturally good at painting or cooking.  I suppose a love for cooking would be helpful because it’s not hard and I can do it, I just don’t enjoy it as much as I think I could…and I love painting but I’m not an original with it- and that’s the best part about a painting.

6. A talent I do have is decorating.  I LOVE to decorate…and I love the challenge of different houses and rooms…though, our current house is not inspiring me at all.

7. This week was pretty tough physically because of a fast/cleanse I did…but my time with Jesus was so sweet- that I’d choose it again and again.

8.  I am looking forward to next week…SPRING BREAK and headed to my parents for the week with the kiddos.  Bart will join us for Easter weekend.  I would never want to fly with my 3 kids alone but driving for 11 hours doesn’t seem as daunting.  Ha.  We’ll see what I think after next week.

randomania #348

I randomly find myself decorating our house for Christmas in my head and dreaming up paint projects that I should do right this minute for December?!  Weird.  I’m guessing its the direct result of skipping Christmas last year.  Never again.

Bart started work this week- which should have been amazingly momentous for me as well, but alas, we are all sick and so…I did good for one day but not today.  Now I’ve realized that my sickness might be compounded with seasonal allergies- which I forgot that I get once every time I move to a new place.  Alas.  Just popped a benadryl and might not finish this post.  Ha.

I’m sending one kid to school tomorrow if it kills me.  Josiah is finally better enough and while I hate the thought of waking up early to take him, it needs to be done.  With grandparents and sickness, he’s been out over a week.  Oops.

Speaking of grandparents- we had a great time with them last week!  The highlight was definitely Burney Falls, which I’d never heard of.  It’s only an hour away and is the most beautiful giant waterfalls…amazing, seriously stunning.  My boys weren’t super impressed; the picnic that followed had their hearts.  But Maya is still talking about the waterfalls, waterfalls, waterfalls…she’s a parrot on repeat like, tenfold.


Burney Falls…seriously beautiful.  LOVE!  If you visit me, I’ll take you here.

So we also got to enjoy a hotel pool since my parents stayed in a nearby hotel…I can’t imagine why they wouldn’t want to be stuffed into our already small house.  ha.  It was great and terrible to be at the pool…wonderful bc the kids loved it but it also made me sad…I miss our backyard pool…gosh we were so spoiled.  Anyway, it was lovely to explore a new town with my parents and I think they were quite impressed with Northern California.

It’s great too, because I get to see them again in a month…as we are planning on making the trek up north for Spring Break/Easter.  I haven’t been home for Easter in probably ten years or more, so I’m very excited!  My kids will get to experience my dad’s resurrection hunt for the first time and my family will get to see Maya’s Easter dress in person.  LOL.  Yes, that’s really the funnest part of Easter besides Jesus resurrecting- you think I’m kidding.

I just bagged up over 1/2 the kids toys yesterday.  I don’t think they realize their toys exist now that we don’t have a playroom.  Plus we’ve been terrible with screen time so I need to put a lockdown on that soon…after we are not sick any longer.  But yeah, it’s bizarre…Regan is the only one who consistently plays with toys- and his rotation includes transformers and super wings and the occasional car.  Thankfully the weather has been beautiful and they’ve been outside a lot the past few weeks.

Josiah and I made his planet for school today- Uranus.  It’s pretty pathetic but heck, he did it himself, so I am proud of that.  He still has to write his report and draw the thing…but at least the 3d model is finished.  Phew!

My mom brought me the most beautiful thing last week…her mint green typewriter!!!!  I SO CANNOT WAIT to play with it..and use it as pretty decoration someday too- if we get a bigger house…with a spare side table. Ha.  But it’s so pretty.  If I had a picture of it, I’d upload it this instant.  Thanks A MILLION mom.